I got Installed Sales!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It took awhile for the excitement to sink in, but I am thrilled and excited to finally get off the front end. Everybody thinks this is the key to getting pregnant, getting off the front end. While there are days on the front end where I want to go to the highest mountain and scream my head off, I don't feel being Head Cashier really stresses me out THAT much.
I'm a little irritated with some of my friends right now. 95% of my friends I wouldn't trade for the world, I would take a bullet for them and I know they would for me. But it's that 5% that really has me peeved right now. I'm having a For Your Pleasure party tonight and everybody's pussy-footing around about it. I don't know why I'm surprised though, it's the same response I'm getting when I ask them to host a spa. (Anyone reading this, please don't get offended. It really is a very small amount of my not so close friends that I'm talking about here)
Back to more positive things, my Nook has really been an escape for me. I LOVE my Nook. I would like to kiss whoever came up with the idea!
I'm hoping to go see my Grandma this weekend. My mom's been up there for awhile now and as long as she continues to have good days I'll drive up Friday. *Come on Grandma...keep fighting!!*
My life right now can't be placed into words...it is chaotic, stressful, emotional, sometimes wonderful...but this is my attempt at describing it.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Day 21
I've really been neglecting my blog lately. Yesterday we had a BBQ with some friends, the weather really sucked and some people didn't show up, but we had a really good time. It was great to spend some quality time with some people I hadn't seen in awhile, it also helped to get my mind off of everything. Troy and I were both exhausted, Troy especially-he'd be up since 1 AM the night before! We both passed out about 10:30. Fortunately Troy woke me up getting back into bed this morning because I realized I had a doctors appointment this morning! It was 7 when I woke up so I set my alarm for 9:15 and went back to bed.
I got the results a lot earlier than I've ever gotten them. The doctor called about 2:30 this afternoon. My progesterone was at 2.something. Definately not where we want it at! I keep going to back to something my chiropractor said a couple years ago. She did this weird "test" thingy where she'd touch different parts of my body while applying pressure to my outstretched arm. If my arm gave out, it meant the area she was touching was "weak." While she's doing this, I mention there's a chance I might have fertility issues (this was before all our treatments and what-not). So she puts her hand over my right ovary, arm still stable. She puts her hand over my left ovary, my arm goes down. So she said my left ovary was weaker than my right..............
That being said, 3 out of the last 4 months my left side has cramped up around Day 14. Last month (when my progesterone was the highest) my right side cramped up. I know in a normal woman ovulation is supposed to alternate every other month, but I don't think mine is. And I think when I'm supposed to ovulate from my left side, I'm not. I feel it's too late in our Clomid cycles to do anything about it. But it will definately be the first thing I mention to the RE if we have to go to one.
Troy and I had been preparing ourselves for the RE discussion, but when I was on the phone with the doctor she asked if we wanted to do a final round of Clomid or go straight to the RE. I thought this current month we are on was our last cycle, but apparently we have one more to go. Troy and I had already decided we were going to wait until after vacation to see the RE (which is still a sensitive matter with me), so I made an impromptu decision to do the last round of Clomid. That will put us late July-early August and then if we're not pregnant we will wait until the first of September to see the RE.
On a more positive note, Troy let me get a Nook today and we (myself and the Nook) have been practically inseparable!!
I got the results a lot earlier than I've ever gotten them. The doctor called about 2:30 this afternoon. My progesterone was at 2.something. Definately not where we want it at! I keep going to back to something my chiropractor said a couple years ago. She did this weird "test" thingy where she'd touch different parts of my body while applying pressure to my outstretched arm. If my arm gave out, it meant the area she was touching was "weak." While she's doing this, I mention there's a chance I might have fertility issues (this was before all our treatments and what-not). So she puts her hand over my right ovary, arm still stable. She puts her hand over my left ovary, my arm goes down. So she said my left ovary was weaker than my right..............
That being said, 3 out of the last 4 months my left side has cramped up around Day 14. Last month (when my progesterone was the highest) my right side cramped up. I know in a normal woman ovulation is supposed to alternate every other month, but I don't think mine is. And I think when I'm supposed to ovulate from my left side, I'm not. I feel it's too late in our Clomid cycles to do anything about it. But it will definately be the first thing I mention to the RE if we have to go to one.
Troy and I had been preparing ourselves for the RE discussion, but when I was on the phone with the doctor she asked if we wanted to do a final round of Clomid or go straight to the RE. I thought this current month we are on was our last cycle, but apparently we have one more to go. Troy and I had already decided we were going to wait until after vacation to see the RE (which is still a sensitive matter with me), so I made an impromptu decision to do the last round of Clomid. That will put us late July-early August and then if we're not pregnant we will wait until the first of September to see the RE.
On a more positive note, Troy let me get a Nook today and we (myself and the Nook) have been practically inseparable!!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Day 14
Starting to have my doubts about this cycle. This is the day I should be ovulating and while I'm more lubricated than normal, I don't have the discharge I'm supposed to. I haven't told Troy my concerns, I don't want him worrying about my sanity...or what's left of it. We've been doing a lot of serious talking though. I think we've decided that if we aren't pregnant this cycle we're going to wait until after our vacation in August to go to the RE. I've been a little down since we talked about it, I'm so torn. It literally KILLS me inside to put it off anymore, but on the other hand it sucks planning a vacation not knowing if you're going to be pregnant or not. Today someone asked me how long we'd been trying, I told them a year, and they said "Oh that's not that long!" It feels like a friggin' decade to me! I wanted to smack them.
I want to spend the next two months losing weight. I need to get back onto my diet. I also need to exercise, which is making me a little down as well. My hips have been bothering me so badly the last month I'm having a hard time even walking. I'm getting a massage tomorrow, hopefully that will help. I have been to my family doctor, my chiropractor, and I've had one massage before...all of it is only a temporary help. I refuse to be fat and in pain all my life!
I want to spend the next two months losing weight. I need to get back onto my diet. I also need to exercise, which is making me a little down as well. My hips have been bothering me so badly the last month I'm having a hard time even walking. I'm getting a massage tomorrow, hopefully that will help. I have been to my family doctor, my chiropractor, and I've had one massage before...all of it is only a temporary help. I refuse to be fat and in pain all my life!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Day 10
We made it through hell week!! Usually about Day 10 I start to feel more "normal" and not so Incredible Hulk-ish. Day 10 is also when I start feeling like a cat in heat...haha! I took my last dosage of Clomid...EVER...yesterday. It's a little surreal. Pregnant or not I will never have to take another damn Clomid, I hear the Femara has much lower side effects, Troy is happy about that. We're both hoping it doesn't come to that.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Day 7
Man have I been a bitch the last couple days! This morning I got angry because Troy was rubbing my head and he messed up my head band. Tonight at work I snapped at a bunch of my cashiers. I can't wait for this week to be over with so I'm done taking the Clomid. I hope we can get pregnant this month, but I've heard the Femara doesn't have as bad of side effects so hopefully I won't be as bitchy.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Day 3
AF finally came. I was a little concerned, the last two cycles I got my period while taking the Provera, this cycle it was a couple days after. Maybe that's good though, my last couple cycles have been a little screwed up (even with my Progesterone hitting a 7). Not much more to report...I really haven't been in a good mood lately.