Tomorrow's the big day

Well tomorrow's our appointment. I am scarred...to...death, if I may be completely honest. I'm sure that tomorrow will be nothing more than a consultation, but I'm hoping since we aren't starting from square one we can start on a new treatment right away. I am not getting my hopes up for anything though. Tonight we're going to see "My idiot brother" I think I could use a good comedy.

Works been going pretty good since I got back from vacation. A little bit of drama and irritation, but nothing compared to the front end! I really enjoy being in Installed Sales. I like the people I work with (customer and employee), I love the hours, I love everything about it. I no longer dread going to work.

Vacation

Today was our first day back to the real world. I was able to take a half day though! Vacation was great...AMAZING. Colorado is gorgeous.

 This is the view we had from our balcony all week. It was so serene. Every morning I woke up earlier than Troy just to make a pot of coffee and sit out on the balcony and read. I probably would have spent my entire vacation on the balcony!

We also went to the Hot springs

We hiked a trail to the overlook of this waterfall

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Only 3 days to vacation

The subject says it all...only 3 days to vacation. (And only 2 of those are working days) I have tomorrow off and Troy and I plan to go to the fair, my butt hole husband was on vacation officially at 10 this morning. Then Friday and Saturday should go by pretty fast.

I don't have much to update, if anything at all. I haven't taken more than my Metformin in three weeks and haven't had a doctors appointment in two weeks. I don't have to track my days or my cervical fluid. It's kind of a sigh of relief, but I must admit it's all in the back of my head. I'm hoping Colorado will give us a chance to refresh and regroup to prepare for the next round of tests, needle pokes, and pills.

I probably won't update again until after vacation, so I hope everybody has a good week and gets a chance to enjoy the fair (if you haven't already!)

In a funk...and not the good kind

With just over a week before vacation, you'd think I'd be happier than I am right now. I'm beyond tired of stressing out about money, and arguing with Troy. We haven't had the major spats like we used to, but all these little tiff's are taking more out of me! Today I had my oil changed and they informed me my battery is testing less than half where it should. I told him not to replace it, but then got to thinking I probably should. I was literally trembling when I picked up the phone to tell Troy. He doesn't handle stress well (worse than your average person) and he tends to just shut down when he's pissed off. He definately shut down today. I told him maybe we shouldn't go to the fair this year and use that money to get me a battery. He says (like I'm a total idiot) "We already have our tickets honey!" I told him we could give them back to his parents and SOMEBODY would get use out of them. Then he just says "Whatever, it's up to you." So now I have this giant weight on my shoulders with no friggin' clue what to do!!

I'm also feeling the pressure knowing that our appointment is coming up soon. I'm nervous, but hopeful.

Yet another dissappointment

Heard from the doctor yesterday. My progesterone was at .5 this month. They made me an appointment at Mid-Iowa Fertility for September 1. I made sure to mention Troy and I want to wait until after vacation, give us some time to clear our heads and regroup. The doctor thought that was a great idea and wished us well. I had looked into Mid-Iowa before going to Dr. Sposato, so I knew kind of what they're all about. Looking at their website again I am scared shitless. I can't deny it anymore, I...am...scared. I know we have more steps to take before it gets to insemination or IVF, but I'm afraid that it will come to that. Troy and I are definately open to IVF, but we have kind of decided right now if it ever comes to that we'd probably just end up adopting. It costs so much, and isn't even guaranteed. (Plus, I could never give myself shots...and Troy couldn't do it either)

I had a major melt down last night, so bad it made me sick to my stomach. Troy of course has been great to me. I don't think I'll ever know exactly what's going on in that head of his, but he seems to be holding it together pretty well.

We celebrated our two year anniversary yesterday. Friday we went to Baratta's for dinner (they are the ones who catered our wedding, and are absolutely wonderful!) Troy let me get a purse that I've been eye balling forever, and he's going to get a new pair of shoes. Not the most exciting anniversary, but considering we're going to Colorado in 3 weeks I really can't complain!