I'm officially a working mom

I've been back to work from almost two weeks now and it's been a little hectic. Troy works overnights so I have to get up with Logan at night and then go to work during the day. Fortunately, about a month ago Logan started sleeping for one longer stretch at night. I average about 6 hours of sleep on a GOOD night. Last Friday Logan got his 2 month shots and did great. He didn't even spike a fever and was back to his normal, smiley self in a couple hours. He woke up at different times than normal, but was never overly fussy.

Things are a little rocky on the home front, nothing I care to go into too much detail about. I'm hoping it's just normal first time parents problems. I'm going back to my parents at the end of September and I'm hoping that will help clear the air maybe.

I've also been sitting here thinking it's almost been a year since I found out I was pregnant! It's been a whirlwind of a year but I'd do it all over again if I had to.

6 week check up

I had my 6 week post partum check up yesterday. It went really well. I was disappointed I didn't get to see the doctor that delivered Logan, but I love all the OB's in the office. They were very upset that I left Logan home with daddy...I just figured it would be easier. The doctor says my incision healed great and is looking perfect. She put me on birth control and because I opened my fat mouth I am back on Metformin. I'm not thrilled about it, but I must admit it was the best way for me to lose weight. (Mainly because I had to force myself to eat when I was taking it and anything I did eat went right through me. I know, sorry, TMI!) We did compromise and she's letting me take 1000 mg instead of the 1500 mg I was on before which is what made me sick. I'm hoping I'll have good results so she doesn't bump it up! I will also finally be getting back to the gym and starting a modified South Beach diet.

My short term goal is 25 pounds by the first of the year. Long term goal is to get back down to 140. The doctor said that would be the "high end" of a normal BMI for my height but it's where I would feel happy. I expressed some concerns to the doctor...it's common for me to give up on diets because I don't see results soon enough. I struggled with eating disorders in high school and was losing 10 pounds a week then so for me to only lose 2-3 pounds a week seems discouraging! I have also NEVER had a healthy relationship with food, she highly recommended I see a dietitian but I told her I would like to try it alone first. I have made Troy promise me that if I either give up or am not seeing results within three months he will make me make an appointment to see a dietitian.

When we were at Mid Iowa Fertility, my RE encouraged me to get a base line mammogram when he found out my sister is a breast cancer survivor. I also talked to the doctor about this yesterday. She said I have to wait until I haven't been breast feeding for six months (which I gave up about 2.5 weeks ago) so in February I will call to make an appointment for that.

Logan is doing great. He's smiling a lot more and "talking" a lot more. I'm so sad my leave is almost over but I'm almost certain I could never be a SAHM!!