Amazingly enough I slept like a friggin baby last night. I woke up at 6:50 AM and really, really had to pee so I got up. I opened the PT box, kissed the test before I took it out of the wrapper. Peed on the stick, set it on the counter, and said a little prayer. God must have been sleeping still because the test was negative. I simply shrugged it off, and went back to sleep. Woke up again about 9:30 and that was when all the emotions hit me. Negative pregnancy test, Sunday is the one year anniversary of my coworker passing away, my birthday's on Monday and Troy just informed me we probably won't be able to go out to dinner for it because we won't have enough money! (We're going to have like $500 after all our bills are paid...and my own husband can't even take me out to dinner on my fucken birthday!) So I've decided if I can make enough at my spa tonight, I'm going to take my favorite girls out for dinner for my birthday!
Hopefully my day gets better...this sucks.
My life right now can't be placed into words...it is chaotic, stressful, emotional, sometimes wonderful...but this is my attempt at describing it.
No comments:
Post a Comment