Can't even think of a catchy title

It's been a totally insane weekend. Thursday night I ate something that didn't agree with the Metformin so I checked into the bathroom for most of the night. I called in Friday and pretty much slept all day. Yesterday and today were really busy at work, but it was good to get my mind off of everything. Finally tomorrow I get my massage and it's an hour for me to forget everything that's happen.

Considering everything going on, I'd say Troy and I are wound pretty tight. Sometimes I don't know what's going on his tiny little head, but I do know our infertility issues get to him sometimes. I try to stay strong for him, but I usually have a 5 minute melt down at least once a day...caused by the woman with 20 kids, the pregnant lady bitching about how badly she "wants this thing out", or it just comes on randomly. Troy and I give and give to our friends and family when they need us and never ask for anything in return, in fact quite a few people are unaware of our infertility problems. At the risk of sounding selfish, it's become time for us to worry about ourselves. As if we didn't have enough to worry about, a lot of extra (un-needed) stress has been added recently. And I could sit here and rant about it, I mean, this is my blog who cares who's feelings I hurt...but, what I have to say would come out as a long strand of profanities that would make a drunken sailor cry and would probably get my blog shut down.

I had been doing better on the Metformin, and I was beginning to feel better...today that's all gone downhill. I think it's the damned girlscout cookies but who knows. Friday I noticed some blood when I went to the bathroom so I thought maybe I was starting my period. I called the doctor to see if I should continue taking the Provera. Of course I got the @$!%# nurse who knows nothing. She kept asking if I was taking days 5-9, talking about Clomid. I told her a million times I'm not taking the Clomid yet and I'm not even on a cycle day because my cycle hasn't started! Finally she realized what I was talking about and told me to continue taking it until I was done. After that I started reading on my fertility board and it sounds like that's what other people have been told so I continued taking it. Saturday still some blood...but never enough to need a pad. Today it's completely gone, so I'm not sure if that was my period or what. I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow (and ask to speak directly to the doctor) to see what to do because if she's going to count that as my period my day 5 is Tuesday.