Day 3

Called the doctor today. I made my days 21 and 28 appointments and also talked to the doctor about my Clomid situation. The nurse called me back, I had to leave a message, and kept arguing with me about stuff. I don't know how she was counting but she kept telling me February 3 wasn't day 6 so I'd be fine with waiting. Finally she said she'd have the doctor call me, I told her that'd be excellent. About an hour later the doctor called me and the nurse had her so confused I had a hard time explaining it to her too! Finally we were on the same page and she said I was right, the 3 is day 6. She sent my prescribtion into Wal Greens and I was able to pick it up today...thank God!

Day 2...yeah, that's right!

No that's not a typo...today is day 2 of cycle 3! Last night I got my period...on my own!! No Provera, nothing. Right now, this is almost better news to me than a positive pregnancy test. It's progress, at least and means we're doing something right. I told Troy last night and I sat there trying to think of what might be wrong with me. I thought maybe I had some how gotten pregnant and was having a miscarriage, or my uterus was falling out, or lots of other completely off the wall things. Troy looks at me and says "I don't know why you automatically assume the rest, you just got your damn period!" I cried last night and then after that I laid in bed with a goofy smile on my face. I'm so happy. I realize this doesn't mean I'm going to ovulate this month, but it does mean something good is happening with my hormones and we are getting closer to where we need to be.

My only issue now is when I tried getting my prescriptions Wal-Mart told me I couldn't get my Provera until the 31 and the Clomid on the 3. Which at the time wasn't a big deal, but I have to take the Clomid days 5-9 and the 3 will be day 6! I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow, I have to make my Day 21 and 28 appointments anyway, so I'll see what she wants to do then. I might just have to get them from a different pharmacy.

I'm trying to remain cautiously optimistic, but I'm definitely crossing my fingers for something good this month! Thank you to everybody for your support and prayers through this...it means a lot to Troy and I both. I don't think we could make it through this on our own without our support system. While infertility on any level sucks, I feel fortunate that (with any luck) we won't have to try much longer. I hear all kinds of stories about women who tried for years to get pregnant, or women who never did get pregnant and I can't even fathom how difficult that is. Troy and I have had our ups and downs but I count our blessings every day.

Day 28.5 (Technically 29)

My appointment went really well today. Everything checked out so we are going to continue next month with a higher dosage of Clomid and see what happens. The nurse took me back today, started taking my vitals and asking some questions. She asked if we were using any birth control (I'm sure this is a standard question, but seemed stupid on a fertility visit) before I could even think I blurted out "Nope, my ovaries do a good enough job!" She looked a little stunned, told me the doctor would be in soon, and walked out. About 10 minutes later the doctor comes in...laughing...and says "I hear you got lippy with my nurse!" She thought it was hilarious, I did still apologize though. Talking to my mom later we decided I should have said "Oh shit...is THAT why we're not getting pregnant?! I better call my husband!"

I seem to be in much better spirits after my appointment. I think I was just really nervous especially with the cramping. I was really afraid my ovaries would react bad to the Clomid and the doctor would say I couldn't take it anymore. The doctor said my cramping was normal and thought it was my ovaries "waking up." I even told her about two weeks ago when it felt like I had ruptured an ovary. She figured it up and it would have happened right around Day 14 which could mean it was an ovary trying to ovulate since my Progesterone was higher, but obviously I didn't ovulate. She said as long as there's no abnormal bleeding or severe pain I'm fine. On Monday I'll start the next round...

Round 1
Ovaries-1
Courtney-0

Day 28

Today's the day of my appointment. I woke up right before 8 to someone moving around on the couch. I thought maybe Troy had left Bailey out all night but then I look next to me and Troy's not in bed. I asked what he was doing, he said he had come down to get something to drink and got really light headed so he was laying down. Needless to say he won't be coming with me today. My morning didn't start out that great and it only got worse. Bailey threw up in three different spots so not only am I trying to clean it up but I'm trying to keep Lexi away from it as well. (If this is any indication of what motherhood's going to be like, I'm beginning to rethink my decision! Haha) Fortunately, I'm feeling better this morning, still not 100% though.

There's been a lot of drama at work lately and it's really starting to irritate me. We've had a lot of changes(some more upsetting than others) on the front end in the last year and I think it's taken a toll on even my best cashiers. We have a couple cashiers dragging everybody else down, another one with constant drama, and other ones you even wonder how they get out of bed in the mornings! I was doing so good for awhile at not letting it bother me, but it's really getting to me now. It's a constant battle to keep my mouth shut at work. I almost think that's why I've been sick for the last two months, not only am I stressed about our fertility issues but 5 days of the week I'm stressed about work. There's been some changes in the just the last few days that I'm hoping will benefit the front end...all I know is SOMETHING needs to happen!

Day 27

Have my next doctors appointment tomorrow. I'm exceptionally nervous. She'll be checking to see if my ovaries are over stimulated or enlarged. I guess I don't know what to expect on the Clomid but I've been really crampy lately. Two weeks ago it felt like I ruptured an ovary just trying to pee (that's a total over exaggeration but I'd get a really sharp pain in my lower abdomen.) Of course I expect the worse so I'm thinking I've been crampy because my ovaries are over stimulated and the doctors going to tell me I can't take Clomid anymore.

Troy and I are sick AGAIN! This is my third time being sick in a month and a half. I'm even more nervous for my appointment tomorrow because Troy said if he's still feeling like he is today he's going to skip our appointment. It'll be my first fertility appointment without him.

Day 21

Amid all the confusion I had my appointment today. It seems it was "Have your head up your ass" day at the doctors office. They drew my blood and I was in and out in 2 minutes. I spent more time explaining my insurance situation with the receptionist than I did with the girl drawing my blood. And I didn't even see the doctor today! I left a message for the doctor to call me. Her nurse called me back right before work. She explained that on day 21, 22, or 23 they want people to make an appointment to check their progesterone AND ovaries (my ovaries were never checked). Then she asked when my appointment was...I told her about an hour ago. She asked who I saw and I told her nobody, they just drew blood. She was a little confused as to why my doctor wanted me to make a day 28 appointment and almost cancelled it but told her to talk to the doctor first because since I didn't see the doctor today and this is my first round of Clomid I'd really like to see the doctor next week. She talked to the doctor and called me later to say she likes to check the ovaries on day 28 so everything is finally back in order!

I should get my results tomorrow, hopefully my progesterone level is at least higher than is was before but I'm 99% sure I didn't ovulate this month. I'm not too disappointed, I hadn't really counted on ovulating the first month. But I'm crossing my fingers for it to work next month or at least by the third month.

Day 20

My Day 21 appointment is tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, and I'm not even sure why. The doctors office called today to get a whole bunch of background health information which I thought was a little weird but figured they knew what they were doing so I went along with it. About 5 minutes into the questions she says something about a positive pregnancy test. I said "Hold up...I'm not pregnant." After which there was a long awkward silence. She finally said they had me down as a new OB patient and was trying to get some history from me. Did they not check my file or something? This makes me even more nervous than I was already. She asked what I was being seen for and again I'm thinking "Shouldn't you guys know this?" I told her it was to check my progesterone levels and then she starts rambling about how both my appointments are lab work and I know the doctor wants to see me at least next week...I would assume at least. I asked her to verify with the doctor and I'm going to ask again tomorrow, I don't want to come in next week and have them completely confused.

Works been difficult for me lately. There's a girl that's due on Friday and it seems like every time I turn around someone else is pregnant so there's been a lot of baby talk lately. I generally tend to ignore it, but I can tell it's taking a toll on my mentality. There's also another lady at work who I don't feel I'm close enough to to share my infertility issues with, but she does know that Troy and I have been trying. Every time a baby comes in she asks if we're still trying. The last time she asked I couldn't stop myself from saying "No, it didn't work the first month so we gave up." She looked a little stunned, and I felt like a total ass but I was beginning to get a little irritated. Last week a coworker brought in their baby and she says "Maybe if you go look at the baby, you'll get pregnant." That comment brought all kinds of comebacks to my mind, all of which would have probably gotten me fired so I did manage to bite my tongue on that one. Ever since we got married, everytime I get sick the automatic response is "Are you pregnant?" I used to brush it off, but now it's like every time someone asks me that (especially because I've been sick with sinus problems all month) it's like they're chiseling a little bit more off my heart.

Day 19

I have been miserable the past few weeks. I went to the doctor thinking I had a pinched nerve, it turned out to be a muscle next to my nerve but has been bothering me even with the pain medicine they gave me. It's really been messing up my sleep schedule. The last few mornings I've been waking up at 3:30 and toss and turn until my alarm goes off...which means I haven't been able to take my temperature. I've been checking the other signs and don't believe that I have ovulated. My doctor's appointment is Thursday. I think this time they're going to do some blood work to check my progesterone. Next week I have a second appointment. I'm not sure exactly what they'll do next week, I think they'll be checking to make sure they didn't overstimulate my ovaries and then talk about where to go from here.

Day 14...I think?

The last few days I've been feeling like I had a pinched nerve. Yesterday morning I was in so much pain I could barely move so I caved in and went to the doctor. Turned out to be a muscle issue so they gave me an anti-inflammatory and a muscle relaxer (Score!). Needless to say, I've been feeling much better, LOL.

I don't think that I've ovulated yet, I haven't been able to take my temperature like I would have liked due to being sick and everything, but I have been checking the other two signs. My cervix seems to be lower, but the opening isn't facing down like it should be. And I've been feeling some quick sharp pains in my ovary region. My first doctors appointment is a week from today and then again in two weeks. Hoping for some good news, not even necessarily that I'm pregnant, just that the Clomid had an affect on my hormones would be good news at this point.

Day 9...again

It's been a busy couple weeks. I'm so glad the holidays are over and we can finally relax...sort of. I started my period December 31, 3 days after my last Provera. It was really heavy and not enjoyable. I started the Clomid on Tuesday and took my last pill today. I can definately tell it's made me bitchier, whether or not it's going to make me ovulate, I don't know yet. I was sick over Christmas, now I seem to have caught another cold and have been miserable the last two days.

I have doctors appointments on the 20th and 27th so we'll see how the first round of Clomid went!

Day 3

It's been awhile since I've been on. Hope everybody had a good Christmas and New Years. I got my period Friday, so this is now day 3. Tuesday I will start my first round of Clomid, I'm not getting my hopes up but I'm crossing my fingers for the first round to work. My hopes are it will at least work by round 3. My new doctor gave me 10 days of Provera, my previous doctor only gave me 5 days. My period has been the heaviest it's EVER been...even when I was getting my period on my own! I have been miserable the past few days. Tomorrow I have to make my day 21 and day 28 doctor's appointments. On Day 21 they will do blood work to check my Progesterone to see if I ovulated and I'm not sure what they'll do on day 28. I'm hoping on my next round I can talk the doctor into only 5 days of Provera so I can have a somewhat normal period. I haven't really had cramps at all but I almost feel like I'm going to bleed to death! Haha.