Heard from the doctor yesterday. My progesterone was at .5 this month. They made me an appointment at Mid-Iowa Fertility for September 1. I made sure to mention Troy and I want to wait until after vacation, give us some time to clear our heads and regroup. The doctor thought that was a great idea and wished us well. I had looked into Mid-Iowa before going to Dr. Sposato, so I knew kind of what they're all about. Looking at their website again I am scared shitless. I can't deny it anymore, I...am...scared. I know we have more steps to take before it gets to insemination or IVF, but I'm afraid that it will come to that. Troy and I are definately open to IVF, but we have kind of decided right now if it ever comes to that we'd probably just end up adopting. It costs so much, and isn't even guaranteed. (Plus, I could never give myself shots...and Troy couldn't do it either)
I had a major melt down last night, so bad it made me sick to my stomach. Troy of course has been great to me. I don't think I'll ever know exactly what's going on in that head of his, but he seems to be holding it together pretty well.
We celebrated our two year anniversary yesterday. Friday we went to Baratta's for dinner (they are the ones who catered our wedding, and are absolutely wonderful!) Troy let me get a purse that I've been eye balling forever, and he's going to get a new pair of shoes. Not the most exciting anniversary, but considering we're going to Colorado in 3 weeks I really can't complain!
My life right now can't be placed into words...it is chaotic, stressful, emotional, sometimes wonderful...but this is my attempt at describing it.
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