Day 22

Playing the waiting game today. That's one thing I always liked about Sposato, she always got my results back quickly. Got our first bill from the new doctor. It was a denied office visit from Troy's insurance, so it still has to be submitted to my insurance. Just an office visit...actually I should say, just a CONSULTATION was $247! I should only have to pay $35 of that, but we have to wait until it's submitted to my insurance first. The bill that I'm not excited about is for the HSG. My insurance only pays one part of the test. One part is $350 the other is $140. I'm hoping we'll only have to pay the $140, but I'm not getting my hopes up.

I woke up in a pretty good mood, even though I had a dentist appointment this morning (my teeth and gums STILL hurt!) but my mood has slowly diminished over each passing hour. I even have a bottle of wine waiting for me in case of bad news (I didn't ovulate this month), but if I don't get a call I might have to have a small glass just to calm down!

I've been a little down all week, and last night just made it worse. Troy drools over Carrie Underwood all the time, fine whatever...I'd do sick and disgusting things to Ryan Reynolds. But last night Troy says "Man is she sexy!" when 'Before he cheats' came on the TV. He even had that creepy Chester the Mollestor tone to his voice. I don't get dressed up too often, but when I do it'd be nice to hear "Man honey, you look great!" He didn't even notice my hair when I got it highlighted. I've gained the 10 pounds back that I had lost so I'm really just feeling fat and ugly and could really use my husbands encouragement that he still finds me attractive. Maybe I'm just over reacting, but it really hurt. I'm constantly telling Troy how handsome he is when he gets dressed up or gets a hair cut. And in my eyes, he really is the sexiest man alive.