Day 82 (or 17 if you're still actually counting)

I don't really have much to say tonight. It's been a draining week and I find myself losing more and more motivation to do even the simplest things. I have Friday off, I'm hoping to use it as a "me" day. Troy will be sleeping, there's a chance of snow so I probably won't do a whole lot. I kind of need to regather myself, maybe I'll go get in my in-laws hot tub, I haven't been in it in awhile. Just found out another friend is pregnant, and while I'm of course happy for her, it hurts. Another friend warned me that it only gets harder, she has also gone through the struggle with infertility. She gave me a few pointers on keeping my sanity, hopefully it'll help.

I've been reading my PCOS book and I'm finding it very informative. I had to force myself through the first few boring chapters about symptoms and stuff but now I'm finally to the diet and exercise part of it and I'm getting much more out of it. While I'm upset about not being able to get pregnant, the PCOS is even more upsetting. It's such a weird disease and frustrating too! There's a million different symptoms, and while you're trying to fix one you might make another one worse. The only way to really make a difference is to lose weight, and with PCOS that's even harder. It's overwhelming and it's even harder to go through something that hardly anyone understands.