Days 18 and 19

I forgot to post anything yesterday, mainly because I didn't really have a whole lot to say but also because I was completely miserable yesterday. I'm feeling slightly better today, this Metformin is kicking my ass though! I'm still waiting to hear back from the doctor about my insurance, I'm thinking when they call back I'm going to ask if I ever have to take Metformin again if I can just take 2 pills a day or if I really need to take 3 pills a day. 3 pills a day makes me not want to eat (which I could afford to go a few days without eatting) but even in order to take my pills I have to eat! I made the mistake of not eatting yesterday right after I took the pill, I think that's why I was so sick.

I've decided this time of year is really awkward for me. Everybody asking me what I want for Christmas...and I know it's a completely innocent question, but everytime the first thing that comes to mind is "a baby." One of these times I'm going to blurt that out before I have a chance to think about it and THAT is going to be very awkward! Haha.

I've "liked" this blog on Facebook so anytime it updates I get posts from it. It's called "999 reasons to laugh about infertility." Yesterday they posted "During infertility, laughter (and Clomid) is the best medicine." I've been trying to laugh more things off, like when one of my cashiers really irritates me, or when my husband forgets to dry my clothes. Getting angry and stressed out is part of my problem, and I this. Fortunately, the biggest stressor is going to be gone in two weeks. No, I'm not getting a divorce...our big credit card will FINALLY be paid off. We've been paying on that stupid thing for 2 years now and it's been the cause of much of our financial trouble so it's a big sigh of relief to have that done next paycheck, and right before Christmas too!