Days 21 and 22

I've been really bad about my blog lately! I guess since I don't really need to keep track of days for awhile, they all just run together. I counted my Metformin today...I have 6 days left! I have been miserable the last week. I woke up feeling like death today, I think I'm catching a cold. My throat and sinuses are really bothering me.

Yesterday we were really busy. I worked during the day and then my nephew had a Christmas program. I did get a little emotional, but managed to hold it in. I kept thinking how proud those parents must be to have their kids up there, and that really hurt. So then I started thinking about how proud I would be if that was my kid up there. I even kind of imagined a little Troy/Courtney standing up on that stage, belting out the words. That helped me to get through it except trying to imagine what our kid will look like kind of scared me for a minute. I'm always afraid our child will come out with each of our worst features...my giant forehead, Troys big ears and nose, they'll be short and fat like me instead of tall and skinny like Troy. It's times like that I really hope God does have some grace! Haha.

I stepped on the scale today because I've started feeling like after that first 5 pounds I lost, I had just stopped losing weight. I've lost 4 more pounds for a total weight loss of 9 pounds so far! It was that extra push I needed to keep me motivated. In January we're hoping to get our elliptical so then I can really start losing weight.

Troy let me buy Eclipse last night, I think he can tell I've been a little down lately. I watched it this morning and thought it was a lot better the second time around. I think I just got my hopes up for it to be spectacular the first time. It is still a great movie though, I can't wait for Breaking Dawn to come out!!!