Yesterday was a pretty bad day...actually the past few days have been pretty bad. We've been really busy at work, and under staffed. Yesterday on a break, one of my cashiers (who I think is a complete moron ANYWAY) was talking about how pissed she was that her son was sick because he's always ruining her plans. I couldn't hold it back. I said "Yeah, because kids are such an inconvience." She immediately got all flustered and apologized like crazy. Afterwards, I laughed a little bit but it still made me mad. A lot of comments I hear don't get to me anymore, but sometimes I get caught off guard. I've become more open with our infertility issues, I really started telling people because I got tired of "When are you and Troy going to have kids?" I think the Clomid made me bitchier this month, I've been saying a lot of things I would normally hold back.
My ovaries have really been hurting this week. I was doubled over in pain yesterday. I told myself at the beginning of this I wouldn't complain though...about anything. I just have to remember what it is I'm doing this for and remember it's going to all be worth it in the end. So far I haven't gotten a positive surge but it is still early. I'm really nervous for my day 22 appointment, I want to know what my progesterones going to be.
My life right now can't be placed into words...it is chaotic, stressful, emotional, sometimes wonderful...but this is my attempt at describing it.
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