Day 14

It's day 14...do you know what your ovaries are doing? With any luck...mine are attempting to release an egg. I wish I knew someone with x-ray vision so they could just look inside and tell me what the hells going on. I've been a little down in the dumps the last couple days, especially today. I enjoy my time away from work, but at the same time I hate being able to sit around and just think. It's so nice out today I might take the dogs for a walk, but I'm going to have to check the radar to make sure it's done raining.

Last night I started thinking about everything going on. I'm always afraid Troy is going to leave me for someone easier...I'm a handful, and that was before the infertility! Now I'm just a wreck. I feel like I'm broken or something, and Troy's going to find someone who isn't and decide it's the easier way to go. I know he never would, he's told me a million times he's in it for the long haul.

I posted on facebook about people saying sick kids are an inconvience, BIG mistake! It has created a huge debate going on...I've gotten all kinds of text messages, emails, and comments on my status. I find it kind of funny. The 'fertiles' take forgranted the awesome gift of reproduction. I would take a sick child over no child ANY day. And as far as I'm concerned, anybody who thinks a sick child is an inconvience, shouldn't have kids. That is what you "signed up" for when you gave birth. I also received an email that it's ironic I'm complaining about harsh comments made me to, when my infertile comments hurt just as much. Mine aren't just comments...they're me being completely and brutally honest. The comments being made to me are insensitive and moronic. I've developed a pretty tough shell, but I am still human and sometimes things get to me. The sick child comment really pisses me off and there's a lot more I'd like to say on the matter, but I'm going to leave it at this.

My appointments a week from tomorrow. I can't wait, fortunately it's on a Monday so I won't have to wait forever for the results!